perspective.

So today, after something really stupid happened (I had just been an awkward turtle with someone special), I felt like a complete idiot. I had embarrassed myself and just felt like a loser. For a small little thing that wasn't even my fault.
Most of the day I just kinda slugged through it, mentally beating myself with a carrot for being an idiot.
Until my 6th period class. We were discussing genetics and whatnot, and suddenly my teacher talks about down syndrome people. She told us that those people can have major issues and have physical defects. And yet... and yet, despite the fact they're not "perfect," that they may not be accepted by our overly harsh society, these people just pour out constant happiness. Even if people make fun of them, even if they don't fit in, even if they're not "normal," they're happy. And that they're just grateful to be here, and want everyone around them to be happy as well (good or bad); that they'll step in if someone is being a bully, and defend the victim. No matter what happens, these people, the people who are not close to perfect in the eyes of society, are something we all seek: Happy.
And you know what? In my eyes, that makes them perfect - no matter who they are or what they look like.
When my teacher talked about this, I thought about it so hard. Then I realized: Why am I so unhappy? There are these people, who have defects, problems, and are probably bullied constantly, that are so vigorous about life and enjoying the moment, and I'm here, upset over a brief awkward moment with the guy I like. I mentally slapped myself for being so stupid; but this time, I wasn't mad at myself. I figured, why waste life being unhappy and mulling over all the things that could or have gone wrong, when you can look to a bright future, enjoy the moment, and do everything you can to be something as simple as happy?
I understand there are people out there who have serious problems with bullies or cruel parents or bad relationships or loved ones who have passed away, and yes, you can't get over things like that so easily. But if you make the effort - if you really, really try to look on the bright side - maybe things will get better. Face the issue, then face yourself. Do you really want to be unhappy? Do you want others around you to catch your bad mood? It may take time, but eventually, you might be able to face life with a bright smile, and focus on that bright future ahead of you. Learn from your mistakes or hardships, and if someone is being a jerk, flip them off and forget about them. Because no one can command who YOU are, tell you who YOU have to be or tell you what YOU want. YOU are YOU, and you only have one life to live. So enjoy it. And be happy.




















weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee sorry just had to do that
there's so many depressed people out there
even for those who i don't know, just read this, take heed of what it says
because it's for anyone and everyone who has ever faced hardship, had a bad day, or just want something cheerful to read
THATS RIGHT BITCHES